Pain—it curls,
hidden away like a spider in my mind, my heart, my muscles,
and unfurls
its legs like tentacles the moment I stop looking for it.
Like the other shoe
it drops, landing me a glancing blow and I, having had
no clue
it was so near, lay devastated by the sting of its heel to my forehead.
I try to prevent
the pain as much as possible; am most often a bystander in life so as
to circumvent
the burning that always finds me/flays me in the end.
Often I tire
even of the standing and run like mad through
hoops on fire
if only to feel a different kind of pain.
In time
I can’t outrun it and the shoes chase after me
to remind
that pain is my lot in life and will follow me wherever I go.
Bleeding
On the side of the road, I watch as the cars drive by ever so slowly,
not speeding
but not stopping long enough to be of service.
The shoes
can’t be bothered. They have important unfettered things
to do
and drive on, sure I have done something to deserve it.
My sin:
a longing to be included, to participate
fully in
life but the shoes are too busy clobbering me to listen.
They like me best, beaten and unresisting, in the box.
20 wise, witty and wonderful comments
WOW!!! That is amazing. You have summed up so perfectly my fibro pain - the part about longing to be included and participate fully in life - definitely brought tears to my eyes this morning. (it's been a bad week)
And pain is so universal isn't it - whether from fibro, or headaches or depression or whatever sidelines us.
Well said Miss Heidi - and thanks so much for sharing it.
Oh I understand. Thinking about you...
Wow Heidi. That was powerful. Thanks for sharing.
I hope that you feel better soon!
This really resonated with me. I've been having stomach problems for 3 weeks now, and while it's not the worst pain ever, it's uncomfortable and miserable.
And then I read Nienie's blog, or other people's blogs who are stuggling with far greater things, and it helps me to look for the gratitude in my life.
This was amazing! I have often felt this way and feel this way now. Pain often does feel like a way of life, like it will never leave us alone. I hope you feel a reprieve for yours soon.
I don't know how you managed to nail so many other's feelings with this poem! It also speaks for me this last couple of weeks. Things are bad........
♥,Lilly
This was beautifully written. Heidi, you'll be in my thoughts.
Wow, Heidi. That is really applicable on so many levels.
and
I'm so sorry.
I am so sorry for your pain, Heidi. I suffered from a chronic issue for 5 years and nobody really ever gets it unless they have had the same problem.
Best, warm wishes.
I am so sorry Heidi. I have missed you, but I get it. Someone said to me the other day, "you are always sick". And they are right. I have headaches daily and migraines weekly. I also have other health issues. So my response was, "Welcome to my life." It can be overwhelming and some days down right suffocating. I am sorry you suffer. Thank you for putting it in words.
WOW!... Its really awesome,You have summed up so perfectly my fibro pain - the part about longing to be included and participate fully in life
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Hoping you're well, Heids. Beautifully written--beautifully said. I love ya Heids.
Oh honey. I don't know how, but you crafted something beautiful and expressive out of that pain. I'm so sorry you have this burden to bear, and simultaneously amazed, and heart touched by your eloquence.
The last line is my favorite.
The greatest thing about life is that there is always another day to beat the odds. Always remember my dear cuz that shoes wear out in the end and we are given the glass slippers we deserve. Keep up the good fight and remember nothing physical lasts forever and we can conquer in the end.
Roxanne
My goodness, that really hits the nail on the Fibro head. I completely relate to the part of longing to be part of things, but unable to do so. It can be depressing to realize this is our lot in life.
I'm glad my friend "Spasm" who also commented, gave me a link to read this.
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